Realisations

Ok, I am so lame and totally made of fail, I forgot I even had a blog. Well, not really. Just been really busy with, what else, law school. Yes, I did have my break, but it was only for two weeks and that was mostly spent on my holiday in South Korea. Which I am supposed to blog about, but I haven't found the time yet. *kicks law school*

So what have I been up to? Well, there was the holiday during my break. And when I got home, I learned that I survived my first semester of law school. I'm not proud of my grades because they are in no way up to my usual standards, but considering that it's my first semester and I'm still adjusting to the work load and all, I'll take it. It doesn't mean I take pride in it though. And it's not like I studied and revised. I've been a lazy student and I am so not proud of it. I vow to do better in my second semester though, which started 1st week of November. The load's quite lighter now as compared to the first semester, and I'm glad.

As for football... click on the 'read more' link below if you want to read my realisations. Everyone knows I have a weird love for Man U and Liverpool. I've been loyal to Man U for the past years, but I've always had this love for Liverpool I can't explain. This season, I'm starting to realise that I'm not so much in love with Man U as I was before, and it may be stupid, but I think it's got to do with Cris' leaving. I still love the team, but it's just not the same. It's like the spark that keeps the team going died down. They're still a great team and I know that Cris isn't the only player that matters, but I just can't bring myself to love them like before. And I'm such a bad fan because I can barely remember when was the last time I watched a whole game they played. I think it was against Liverpool. And they lost.

And so we come to Liverpool. I don't even know where to start. It hurts so bad to see them like this. Me being a Man U fan, this is conflicting, right? But I told you, I'm weird like that. I'm beginning to love Liverpool more these days. I've always had this soft spot for them ever since because of their football. But what makes me love them more is the Kop and the fans. The Kop is like the Ateneo (my uni) faithful supporters, they never leave their team, win or lose. And the feeling of family with the Liverpool girls is just amazing. I've never felt that with Man U, it was like... I was supporting them on my own. But with Liverpool, it feels like a family. And it was especially touching when empireofthekop from Twitter was tweeting and helping out during the Ketsana/Ondoy period. They said I'll never walk alone. And it's so true. Despite the current fails Liverpool may be having right now, I've been falling more in love with them. I guess I'm beginning to be a full fledged Liverpool convert...

And as for the team I love most. I am so proud of Valencia. *hugs them tight* They are so amazing. Of course there's still the inevitable Moya fail, and the defence fail, but they make it through. I love them. I love them with my heart and soul and even more if it was possible. I cannot even explain into words how happy I am and how much I love them.

Oh and yeah, I still haven't accepted the whole Albi thing. I know, it's been months, and I thought I already did, but no. And the day he'll face Valencia will be the death of me. Donut want.

Generally, guess life's pretty good to me, except for some fails and issues here and there. But hey, whoever said life's easy, right? So yeah, I shall borrow my twin's kindergartener (slash my other cheerleader) to remind me that everything will be ok.

Teehee, such a cutie :D

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don'tlistentome

It didn't occur to me that of all the things I hate the most, it's abandonment and disconnection.

But that's life. It's tough, we all gotta deal with it.

:)

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bienvenido a facultad de derecho

I start law school on Monday already, 8th June. I'm so scared :S

And to welcome me, this is what I have to read:

That's like 500+ cases to study, memorize and analyze. And this is only for the week-long Introduction to Law course. *sigh* I was asking for a life. I wasn't asking to be killed. :(

As my fb status says... I have only a little less than two days before I plunge into the deathbed that is law school. I'm really going to miss my lazy, happy-go-lucky-without-a-care-in-the-world life...

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Valencia Playlist

This basically sums up all the emotions I've felt in the roller coaster ride that is Valencia.

I'm not done yet, the other songs I wanted weren't available, boo. So yeah, if I'm not lazy I'll do another one. Most of the songs here describe how much I love them, obviously, haha. :D

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Argh

It's been a long time since I had a proper rant, and I usually keep these things to myself but this time it just ticked me off so bad.

It really really really REALLY pisses me off to see/hear/read about 'fans' claiming or pretending to be PROPER fans. They think they know a lot about the club, about the players, how they play, etc. etc. But no, they don't! They even have the nerve to call the boys THEIR boys... Right. They don't even know who's who in the effing team, FFS. They don't even know the match scheds! Is that a proper fan? Is that even a fan at all?!

I know I haven't been supporting Valencia for so long but dammit, I know so much about them, more than these 'fans' know. I don't just fangirl over the boys, I fangirl over their skillz and their abilities and I do not fangirl over individual players. I do have my favorites of course, but I support and fangirl over the whole effing team. No matter how much they break my heart at times, I still stick by them and love them with all my heart. I support the team not only because they're pretty (they are, too much, but that's just an added bonus lol), but because they're Valencia and they're bloody amazing.

Also, it doesn't piss me off so much if it was someone I didn't know. I'd just ignore them. But this particular one I do know, and it makes my blood boil so much!

Arrrrghhhh I'm going to rip my hair out if I hear one more thing from these people.

Ok, rant over.

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Hopeful

I was supposed to blog about some other things, but right now all I can think about is this particular thing that I really, really, really want. I don't think I've ever wanted something like this in so long (ok there are a lot of others but this one is the most likely one to be granted as of late). And I won't be able to sleep - haha, as if I sleep - unless I know the outcome of this decision.

God, please please please grant me this. I've been a real good girl, and I think pretty much everyone can attest to that. Dear Lord, please, I am praying.

So everyone, may I just ask a little favor? Please please please cross your fingers and toes and everything for me? Pretty please with a cherry and whipped cream on top? :)

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I push myself too hard.

I fail at finishing all the entries about my trip. I promise I'll finish it, maybe by the end of the week. I hope. Everything's just so topsy turvy in my world lately, I can't even be online that much anymore! Boo. I just need to blog about the recent things that have been happening.

Uni.
So, I went back to uni already last Wednesday. It was horrible. I had to pay a fine for late enrollment, because I was supposed to pay Tuesday but forgot the check at home. Then I realized that I didn't have any cash with me, so I told the cashier that I'd go back. I went to the ATM machines and when I pulled out my wallet I realized that I didn't have my ATM card with me too. I was panicking, I was already 30 mins late for class and I still haven't paid my tuition fees. I was running around the campus and it was so hot, I was so tired already! So I texted my brother to ask if he had extra cash with him, and he did, thank God. But I had to run to the other side of the campus where his class was to get him. More running, and then finally got the cash, ran back to the cashier to pay. I ran to class after, 45 mins late, only to find out that I was in the wrong room! Turned out that whoever did my schedule printed out the wrong room assignment. So it took me another 15 mins to find my room, and when I did, I was an hour late already. I had no clue what the prof was talking about and shizz. Yeah, that was a great first day back.

The next few days at uni were okay, but I bombed the first quiz we had. Lol. I always do that at the start of the semester. I never know how to study for a quiz/exam (if I even study hahaha) until I know what type of tests the prof gives out.

Ballet.
So, after two months of not training, I went back to ballet. And man it was so hard to get back. I've never really stopped dancing for that long, not even during the times when I was out injured, because during those times I still trained. Yeah I know, I don't listen to my physio and I'll be paying for it in the future. *shrugs* I love dancing, no one can stop me.

And because of the long time of not training, I ended up so frustrated at myself because I couldn't do the usual stuff I do. My muscle resistance and endurance are both way off, I couldn't last through the exercises. And I couldn't do my turns! Turns are actually my forte. Whenever I dance, especially when I do all those turning steps and spins (pirouettes, fouettes, chainees, etc.) and other challenging steps, there is this certain feeling that I get. I can't explain it, but it's such a beautiful feeling.

Given that, I guess you could imagine and understand the frustration I've been feeling. I badly wanted to get back in shape and when I want something, I do everything to get/achieve it. Which is bad for me, really. And with dancing, just like any other sport, pushing yourself too hard would damage the muscles. And that's what I got for pushing myself too hard. I kept working so hard on the exercises, doing them over and over again just so I can improve fast. Again, I didn't listen, and now I've got recurrent leg cramps, several muscle strains all over, my bad (left) ankle is sore again, and my right ankle is hurting too. Yay me.

Work.
Yes, I'm working this summer again. I cracked, even if I said I didn't want to work any more, and despite the fact that I didn't get paid last summer. I just can't keep myself away from my beloved ballet students. But I took a part-time shift this time, only working on Wednesday, Friday and Saturday from 1-6pm with a 30min break. Its tiring, but better than the 8 hour shift I used to have. And also I get to rest because sometimes my task is to only operate the music and take the attendance. Lol.

Life in general.
Too much stuff going wrong. Idek if I'm going to be paid at work. Oh please let them pay me, I hope they don't do a Valencia on me. Also, I'm kind of in a small life crisis right now. I've planned everything out but now I feel kind of lost, its as if I don't really want all this anymore. And ugh, just... So much more going wrong.

So there, that's basically what's happening to my life lately. Not really interesting. Haha. I really need to get out of this rock that I've been living in and see my friends. I've been putting them off lately, must really see them.

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Remind me how much I hate them.

Ugh, I came across this picture just minutes ago. I cropped the whole thing out and focused on that. Look at the muscles popping out. I do not like them ktnx. Boo.

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Ranty-rant.

I hate it when people just barge in on convos and pretend that they know a lot of things when they actually don't. I hate it when people pretend to know everything about something. I hate people telling others what to feel or do when they have no idea what the other person is going through.

Ok, that was a subdued rant already. Bah, nevermind.

The real thing that I want to say here is:

I hate glory hunting bangwagon fangirls.

End of rant.

EDIT// Yes, that's really supposed to be bangwagon. That is not a typo.

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